In the past year, each month, I have had a call with a fellow Mindfulness Meditation Teacher, Durita Holm. We meditated together using Tara Brach’s RAIN (Recognize, Accept, Investigate and Nourish) practice. After listening to the meditation, we discussed what has “come up” which ends with a quote from Ba-puji:
My beloved child,
Break your heart no longer
Each time you judge yourself you break your own heart.
You stop feeding on the love which is the wellspring of your vitality.
The time has come, your time
To live, to celebrate, and to see the goodness that you are...
Let no one, no thing, no idea or ideal obstruct you
If one comes, even in the name of “Truth” for it for its unknowing
Do not fight
And breathe into the goodness that you are.
In our last session, the words started to come alive. I have been focusing on reaching out and trying to secure a foundation of friends and “more” than friends. I continue on with my caregiving role a role that I am so comfortable and proud of. I had wonderful memories, interesting stories and even managed a broken heart as a result of these relationships. Each came up with a mirror and showed me angles of me that I have not seen. (Thanks, Rachel for this perspective) Each one evoked a multitude of emotions that I observed and explored. It sure gave me a lot of practice when it came to untethering (Michael Singer, Untethered Soul)....relax and release.
Sarah my fave yoga teacher would always say “you have done enough”. I kept repeating this mantra during the session followed by a Loving Kindness practice directed towards me first “may I be safe, may I be healthy, may I be peaceful and may I live my life with ease” followed by wishes for my loved ones, those that have hurt me and for all beings. Somehow, this time, I needed to begin with me.
I felt I have loved enough, done enough...it is time to let go and breathe into the goodness that I am.
I hope that you do the same for yourself. Self-love, self-compassion. #trust
In the end what truly matters is that we love well, live fully, and gently learn to let go.